....
i was up frm 5 am
went to sleep earley
put it at ease
till i woke up tynkyn bout it again
at 5am till now or prolly till 12 where i meet d peeps for zoo later
i sat dwn and put d puzzles back tgther
dn my words
dn i finally figure it out
i wanted to say sumtyn right nw
but i cnt take it
well here it goes
............
i told yu i was right didnt i?
i told yu mya ssumptions will get true?
i told yu my paranoid was actually for real?
i told yu ders nt gna be me and you
i told yu b4hand the other side of my egg
where my temper runs wild and break
i told yu b4hand yu mite nt want to be around
wen im being liddat fall flat on the ground
d reason i didnt tell yu dose tyngs at ferst
cz i noe itll change obviously for the worse
i noe we culd talk tyngs out evrytyme
dats why we are friends, conditions aside
i didnt wanna tell yu at ferst place
cz i dun tynk i haf d right hand to take
again i told yu im afraid of changes
again i told yu ward happen if i tell d difference
wenevr i finally let go of dose
i feel great dat you manage to noe bout a tyng or two
but i noe yu noe i wuld finally leave
dats ward yu wanted well der yu go pls
i shuldnt haf said and tell yu those tyngs
look ward yu haf done
changes please
im sorry i was switchey and mean
im sorry for nto being able to control ward i feel
im sorry i couldnt stop frm reacting free
im sorry dat i was being selfish fer me
i wanted to talk to yu ystrday
d reason i kept quiet was i need the time to break
i realise small details and reactions gone tru
so i cnt finally tell myself i was being rude to you
wen finally i ystrday came for me
i prioritise myself so i culd be free
wen finally yu said to me
"..sorrie, i was busy"
im nt blamin yu fer all dose tyngs
yu were nt at fault fer changin freely
but i cant believe hw tyngs can be
ignorant
stoopid
i never had yu tellin me hw busy yu were
i never had yu tellin me ill talk to you later
d reason why i stayed frends wif yu
cz i tot its intresting to actually noe you
and i finally need sumone for keeps
so in anytyme i trip
yull be der to pull me up to my feet
i lost a bestfren,again dis tyngs dued
and im cant believe its goin tru
i cant take it dis kind of tyngs
it hurt me deep
and break me tru
yu told me list dwn all my worries
finally yull noe of the reasons of tourists
yu swored yu wnt do it again
yu apologise fer being too busy fer awhile
yu promised dat tyngs wnt change fer worse
wen all yu know
all of dat wa snt even close to being words
i told yu i was being replaced
wen der was i putting yu in ferst place
hw cn hw can yu go around nt being true
wen i was behind eacha nd evryone
figuring the tyngs you do
hw can yu leave and tell thousand lies
hw cn yu lie and told me not to lie
i tot i was tynkyn of myself
wen i finally realise it wasnt me all along
why dun yu tynk clsoe n deep
why am i still der wen yu need me
why was i stilll around wen the other was not
cz i am yur frend n nevr ever
even thou i said i wish to leave
i noe hw yu say wen dis is special
....
i prove my point
i dunoe ward to do
i wish tyngs were like las tyme
nothin new
dont yu noe yu were still important
even tho i haf other peple in my life who is new
bt i never change my dialing system
bt i never change my gdnyte schemes
bt i never change my poem tricks
bt i never change my morning smile
bt i never chaneg anytg for along while
nw...i dun even noe where yu are,who are you,ward yu do
well dats d reason
to this...
"...now we reduced to sms."
"...i wnder why we dun haf fun nimore."
....coz i couldnt get u ystrday
i wnder why....
.....im a fool


IF i was your bestfriend...
you tynk it wouldnt evene happen dis way.
sorie tho..