yearnin Captain Oats

i dunoe why
sumtyn hit me today
i was extremely tired
dose non existance sleep was on goin
dose decrease of sleep time
dose and dat
well reache dskool and saw fox..
had a chatw if her..
i dunoe..
and yep..
she told me ..
rationa nd her..
yu guys arent togther?
nw i noe..
isit true?
why....
niwaes....yu gusy are meant to be fer each other..
yu guys shuld be back yu noe...
nwiaes...
ward fox told me hit me....
sumtyn my odl frens dun share wif me..
EVEN ARIF AND HERN NOES BOUT IT...hmph..dis is sad..
dey are the ones who were der wen i found out my bf fucked DAT GERL
and dey were der wen i was crying like crazy in d middle of the class TYNKING DAT HW MY BF COULD FUCK DAT GERL and i got to noe only after i broke up wif him....
dey were th eones who were der wen iswandi was jus playin me
dey were d ones who were der to tell fendi is an idiot...
dey were d ones who knew all mys ecrets sessions wif sum..dey shuld noe...
dey were d ferst ones dat i called wen i had my ferst CIG
dey were d ones wen i did my nose piercing
aand dey were the ones who cooled me dwn wen im pissed wif GERLS!
evrytyng!
is it bcz i haf chosen nt to be close to dem anymore o rward?
but den....i rarely see dem in skool
ration and elise..
i dun see dem around...
and wen i do..
of course ill meet dem fer smokies..
and yes..
im still in cntact wif elise..
but ration...
hmm mb shes busy..
guys,i dun 4get yu guys..
and i didnt..
i wuld like to meet yu guys up and haf dinner or yu noe jsu a meet up liek old times..
yu noe hw evryones busy..
and me...im juz stuck still to my curfews..
and of course i do haf new frens..
and im always wif dem..
but at tymes..i wuld liek to join yu gusy too..
ima lways searchinf e ryu guys wen haf mass lecture or meet ups of d whole cohort...
mb im forgotten..
or am i?
again....i go tru dis kinda loss..
or im jus being negatyve?
i miss yu guys...
and i still owe yu guys berthdae prezzies..
im juz tite on cash always..
i owe elise and ration
i owe hern and yes eff
dun worie i wil...
nwiaes...
i tot of spendin time wi fmy blood after skool after asessment
but guess evryone had their plans
even wen i told dem earlier...
and wati promised her mum watsoever even wen i told her wae earlier..
well yu see guys...im tellin yu..
if no one gna sae anytang
we are soo nt gan meet up durin d hols..
we shuld..
mb catch a movie or maybe tanning...
i need my frens..
i really do
i keep tellin my bf....
at tymes i put my frens ferst cz wen my bf is nt der..i haf my frens.
but sumtymes...my frens haf plans...
so yey..
its alryte peeps..
mb sum other tyme
after fastyn mnth mb
after hari raye..
i gif yu guys a kol
or maybe yu gusy culd..if yu all rmbered..
if yu gusy noe me..
im always free fer my frens.....

im pissed at d amoutn of space evryone used..
i didnt haf space fer my book,packaging
i hid my packagin behidn my po.p...
i gt no space...
i noe aini also dun..but at least she gt to show her book..mine i shidden sumwhere behind..
hw im iritated..
wen i reacehd ferst and waiting fe r dothers..
and sum jus came and set up..
leavin dose liek me haf lesser space..
nwiaes sheena..
shut d fuck up....
mb frm nw on..
im nt gna sae anyutang fer d class..
in d class or maybe outside d class..
i wnt open my sugestions or my say..
ill just shut d fuck up..
yull see...
and oc master...i noe yu readin dis...
i wil yu noe..
sow en i shut d fuck up dun ask me anytang...
went to herns production
PAN ISLAND EXPRESWAE
was cool
very deep...
heheh nice
lurve it..
wif my bf and kocomaster
and yep..deuce bigalow european gigolo is fun
nwiaes..
im too tired to talk
im too pissed atmyself...


i was happie wif my asgnmnts
i wanted to celebrate
but den....
till den..
im gan live alone...
till my bfs on to camp
soon..
hes waiting and im not....
fuck yu sluts..
ill lead my egoistic waes...............