ohhkaes....


ive been nusy wif ma blog revampin and skool werk dat i dun haf d tyme to actuali blog...loadsa tynsg happen...ferst start wif...

ma relationship wif my yah...well hes been fine...evrytyngs werkin fine tho...jzu waityn fer hymt o sae d werds dat satisfy me...niwaes...he stryn to get oevr loadsa tyngs..and me..tryin to juz be wae nt to be flexible and in the book kinda gerl...tho jelousy take sover me at tymes wif hym and d fiza tyngey mergey,im styll fine...sumhw...i gta trust hym..i keep tellin myself..even thop tellin myself..sheena yu gta trust yu own godamn bf,it keep me remenisce bout d dark secret he had wif me...hw it hurts wenevr i gta trust hym....but....i gta yu see..i culdnt juz brood and cry brood and cry. gat do sumtyn ayte?hmph....no one noes d pain dat i go tru evry nyte tynkyn bout evrytyg,evrytyng i put myself tru evrytyng i went tru...mb chal noes best...coz mb i cried to hym liek crazy...hmph...ysterdae had a chat wif c.p..hmph..nyc ebytchyn wif her tho bout toher gerls..heheh naughty naughty...heheh..she culdnt juz belive d reaksyen ive made nowadaes...to kol meself changed..yep i did...but sumhw i styll haf ma old me...mbma temepr hafnt came in again...god neos wen itll cum...cz mb now...wen it cums,i reali gta kil sumone yu see...hmoh..d new tyngey ive fudn was...hw can ibe soo blind?hw cn i nt realize hym being soo gd to e has a reason behynd it..i mean...ders 3 kids in d group and 2 has dis tyngey wif me...haiz...he paid fer evrytyng frm d bowlin and stuffs...it was totful but i dint noe der s sumtymn...well hey...ela tld me juz nt to tink bout it..well exactly..im not....i dunveen wanan tynkl dat it is actualii happenyn.....im tryn to settle issues wif ma own bf..i cnt afford to do other tyng else..btu at dsame tyme i cudlnt also afford to loose ma frens and ma lurved long awaiting one..fer once,i wuld actuali liek all d tynsg iw ant,within ma reach...its always goin awae...fe ronce yu see..w/os ecrets....welld er photos and hey...ill put wen i got more free tyme..mumsies is angry at me..ma hands and shulders been hurtyng and she expect me to massage ehr leg..ivebeen complainin it hurts but yesterdae wa sakiller..and i culdnt actuali move ma hands..i need s support..ma ddad gif em a massage dat culd haf bruises all ove rma body man!!nwiae...it hurts momie..and she got soo piussed off at me..d wae she say is as if..she wats me to gethurt wif mahands due to me massagin he rlegs..i noe shes in pain..btu if i can i culd eert.but i culdnt make opther not in painw en i myself in pain..sriusly...mentaly i can..but physically.i culdnt..ma knees been ver loosly movin..and it hurts...ma fractyuired ankle been like crazy resulted in walkin sidewaes a tymes....well actuali ma hands are tired frm polishind godamn clay which resulted in breakin wif one of dem wen i wante dto hand in..fuck d auntied who kicked my clay on d bus...freakn bytch....and also d sanp paer-ing of ma styrofoam..goodness....killinme yu noe...i dun show my pain...but it hruts....ysterdae skool off wa early wen to buy stuffs at bras basah wif arif,ration.elise and wind and rachell black..wen tot elise hus and we chilled...gta do sum werk...nwiae im hapei i got ito my cuourse..i juz gta do well now...back to story..den do sum tyngs..and igtago off meet my darlyn bf...whos off to hys ekamatra theatre practice...its hys ferts break into his dream..showcasin hys talent..glad he got wat he wants...me?ive got along long wae to go.....no one noes my inner ideas to my own dream...uinlike ma bf...its clear fer hymt o juz walk starte to it...meethym up at sngkang....oh ay ferget...i actuali cut ma fringe...hehe hern ayang was liek..pissed cz she gt told me nt to..and i did..its a funny fringe..left short,right long..it cool...nwiae yah said i look okae wif it...i hoep eh emans it well...hehe den we chilled..he told me loadsa tyngs..heheh was funnyhw hes turnyn metrosexual yu noe...hah which he doesnt even nope d deifnation..hahah...gaf yah half ma ciggies....he purposely one say no rokok but gt money but wanan buy rokok..lahk...yah huney yu knew i will gif yu ryte..hmph....denhe go off...den i wnt hme..ind bus,otw home...i had an idea...im gna start on my perspnal project based on ma therme my own ideas and my wae of doin it....fe rnw..im doin research wif it..mb culd mke it a portfolio ind future....juz a compilation....klah..nw i gatgo..mumie still pisse an dim dwn wif no no money...ergh....niwae..byes....yah hafyn hys ekamatra showcase today at 4..all dbest to hyma nd me?i gat do d freakin test paper today ...he said its difficult..d expertise of me studyun is wae we long gone..hahah klah igatgo now..again sayin it..ergh hate ma new blog....ist soonyce but tooo many prolems..muahkz!