.........she will be loved..........


30th march 2005, thursdae..


woek up earlie...tanx to ayang hern..hahah nt actuali earlie..she calle dme a round 8 wif me mumbling and whining wen pepel wake me wile sleepin..hehe i said nt goin to skool lah..den i woe up at 10..and kold her..she was aslepp..i tyot she was juz jokin bout her sleepin bck..btu ehy..she did...hahah siak btul nyah...hahah den wnt had done sum chores...dn wnt to elsie hus..it took me foreevr to reach der..fer once..i tk a bus alld wae to rwach sumwher very far..haha serangoon gardens...took mrt to toapayoh..d crave fer nssiaayam kilin me..den took 73 came dwn at srangoon gardens..elsie hus..ha dme eatyn carrotcake..and dne...came rationa dn fowas der...we bytch liek crazy..duuuh...and wen did sum tyngs adn i gatgo off..meet ma darlin yah...and hey..he claimed he fynshed at 6..and duuh..he ends at 7..freakin fucked up shit..he gta pae me off wif all d waityn shit man once he go bald..i dun freakin care...niwaes,took acab top reach der...yah and mursh picked me up upfront skool..haha den we wnt insyde.and im d big fuck an dpsecial guest...hahah saw aesyakeys..heheh missed her...we sat dwn and she teman me all dwae...very funny...she laayn me wif evryutyng..haha ma mengaru and stuufs..we disturb frm murshes bestfren to noorkiaha and shit..hahaha klakar giler...den saw yahs performance..its hys forte yu see...drama freak..hahha hes soo dramatyc and emo..so hes liek dis main role ind d recital tyngie mergy .....hm,mm...theatre arts fer hym and arts fer me...hmm....d frens was sooo friendly..all if dem wwas lieke yu noe..nvr see me b4 and dey were extremely frendly..kliek dey knew me fer yers kliek dat...fer once..natasha was friendly..hahah she dun actuali be dat talkatyve and shit..btu she wwas..heheh nwiaes den we wnt to bedok fer ma yahs silat..he went to take hsy allowance..50 bcusk...hahah...hmm..was styll smiley..yah hold ma hands wen we cross d bridge..hehe fer once...he did dat..and i feel sooo hapy...hhahahah..i noe...its like he make me fell in lurve wif hym all over again and make me feel dat dis is d ferst tyme...well...hehehe...dn went dwn tampines...we chilled wif aizata nd talk botu suffs..and i gat go bck alone..hmm....dis make me feel a wee byt nt hapie bt soryte..i cum den i go bck alone..las warnyn eh yah....if dis kinda tynsghappen again,den its liek all over again...heheeh....den we ch talked atnyte till 1...hmmm...



1st april,fridae..


its april fool dae...well..elsie played a prank on her bf and it gets hym sooo pissed...hahah den we played a prank on ration..hahah its wa funny..actuali iwas sick and pissed..hafyn akiller headache...ma clay wasnt dry yet...wqas polishyn it in skool...and i was hafyn kiler headache...once i bend and istand up..i culdnt see atyng..was preventyn amself frm fellin to d ground...den wen recah skool..wa shapie wif elise..she was funny..hahhaha..so kinda make me ferget ma sickness...so none noes dat ima ctuali sick..zais class..was funny..hhehe he wwas alah..as ususal..he had a nintendo inhys pouch!!hahahaha...and hewas talkin to me bout barbie dolls!!hahaha...den we wnt eat acroos...all eat ansi lemak..arif eat nasi ayam...hahahah...funny...den we wnt bck..and had dis group project,,fyuck lah..im wif oak elah...but ration end up wif ravhelle brown and i wif rachelle blck..and arif wif elise..ergh..and zai was styllhafyn truble spellin and proouncyn elsie name...hahah den yah msged me..and herne answered hym..hahah den i went off...felt d tiredness and was feelin sick...realis ick..cramps in ma stomach..and i was walkin bendyng dwn..liek i used to ..laz tyme...laz tyme i used to be like dat...i had cramps and ill be walkin aorund liek granny...den wanted to meet yah....den cme dwn interchange and yah sai dwanan go theatre...den i say okae..den eh say finish late..i gt pissed off...den i tk bus..den he say mtg den i cme dwn..den conclude all didnt meet hym...haiz...i gt soooopissed off...ma cramps getyn werse...and i was crying at the bustop..on the fone wif yah..cz im ssooooo hafyn cramps...den yah was apologizing and stuffs...pam,peryn me..heheh wee...MUAHKZ YAHHH!!hehehh...den nw im fyne..gt dwn few panadols...nw im fyne tho..hehe yah went to theatre and gta wiat fer hym...and im okae..and tomorrow meetyn hym...weeeeeee......hehhe...miss ma ayh...2marow we wearyn same2 as muersh!!!'heheheh......den nw chatyn wif ela...was hafyn tots....was tynkyn bout why kai runnyn away frm me....haiz..watevr...hahah its kidna funny me and ela exchnage toyboys...asyik';s clse wif me..and kai nw clse wif ela...hmmm....fuck dan ask kai to call me tonyte..hha buat klakar...niwaes...den read c.ps blog...she tot i tld abd sumtyn or watevr shit..hw cn i if im nt even talkin tohym....its nt dat i hatye hym..i juzhate hym fer nt trustyn me as hsybestfren...if he dos lurve me as hys bestfren lek eh said so...why does he haf to asuume tyngs and juz blurt ou evrytng.....nw i haf my man back..and im hapie..but i need ma bestfren bck..i need bth important men in my lyfe..ma yah..and my abd ma bestfren..dats all..bt im styll wee bit pissed...ill nursed maself..dunw oprie....ill apologioze abd if i take too loing but i wnt go awae....den read c.ps blog...hw she talks botu leavyn and stuffs..hw abd left her and she felt hurt and shei did it on me..haiz..watevr ayte c.p..sumtyngs are btr left 4gotten...i styll hate yu fer doin dat..but i dun fuckin care nomore...niwae why shuld i tynk oif yu uif yu doin sumtynbad?im being d ignorants heena...since yu leave its yu problem..so i dun casre..i noe..yuw ere ma bestfren...in secndary skool life..i styll treasyur eit..and i admit its d bestest life ever..if it were to be rel;ive itll be muchbtr...but hey...i styl rmeebr ma werds..tabel sturn..evryone changyn...evryone fels d same...but evrytyng WAS A WERE!!so practically..came up wif sumtyn frm me as usual..WEN YU LEAVE,NVR LEAVE TRAILS FER YURSELF..LEAVE TRAILS FER D PEROSN YU LEAVE>>>COZ DEY WILL BE A FREN TO LOOK AFTER YU AT ALL TYME W/O YU KNWIN IT>....practically dat...yu dun put all out...indirectly yur styll jzu a fren...hate is common..btu yu wer em abestfren and juz styll juz a fren...practically dat..got it?hmmm.....nwiae...talk bnotu d past always makes me hate more...hate sumone more...sumone...nt c.p lah..sumoen eelse...ui shuldnt haf let dem be close at ferst place..shudl;nt let dem talk to each other at ferts place..of all d tyngs..hw old she is..and is tyll dun tybnk..and i folow..and hw she payme..BETRAY MA TRUST!!fuck yu lah bytch.....ergh watevr..i dun need yu in my lufe...and im hapyu w/io yu niwae...frm nw onwards..i dun trust ma bf in an older pepels's hands..trust me...yu steped one m once...TOLERANCY HAS NO LIMITS ANGER HAS GREAT BOUNDARIES AND TRUST PAES A GREAT PRICE....evry gerl or lady or woman dat cums along am wae an di tynk haf d hots fer ma guy w/op tellyn me...ill make sure yu lick ma shoes clean while ill bleach yur pussy.....ergh!nwiaes..i gatgo...imgna upload pics on mablog..okae...spreadyn d lurve...mauhkz!:D