thursdaes..

well im very d vee tired..woke up damn fuckin late due to d fact dat ergh..damn fuckin alarm clock....d dae b4 msged abd and stuffs..kid amsged hym hes styll be ma abd ina wae dat hell still be ma bestfren cz i alwyas does dat thop..and sumhw mb he pissed in y frens....or watevr shit...apologize tho ind mornyn....didnt bther to answer i tynk hym...welll i tynk hes biging to be liek c.p...well nwie i use to haf dis talkins essionw if hymw ere qwe bth always explain our actions done but after aergh...i dunoe lah he...i reali need to meet hym uopa nd haf atalk but hes soo difficult to cntct hym nw...we hafnt been der fer each other fer d past fe wdaes..well i admit mb me lah..c zi dun ptu masself ina limelite yu noe wen cum to ma bestfrens..i preferred beingbrought dwn tho...mb hes walkin away juz liek c.p did...mb he hates ma frens juz hw c.p sae and hw ruzainis aid..welll watevr shit i did nvr seems to saitisfy anyone in life...d parta nd moment i stop askin evryoen alonga nd liek cntct due to sum facts and reasons,dey strt avoidin me liek abug.wel hey ...i cnt care fer evryoen feelinsg alld tyme,yu pepl hate ma new frens hate ma new life hate d new me..but hey...im hapie dis wae now but wen i tynk hw yu peple wh dun bther to be wif me now and preferred runyna wae and wen i did liek drop by msgy and stuffs and gio liek tynkyn im useless nbw and dun bther me,i feel sad..i cri liek at nytes fer ma waiityn one,fer mabestfen wh lost frm me...i dunoe why but sumhw i feel vulnerable w/o hym gullible w/o breakable w/o hym///ma bestfren......hes always nt satisfied wif hw i decide ma lurve life na dma ego attitude.....btu i liek hw he keep scoldin me..makes me learn tan dlisten to hym..ive always listen and alway sholdin to d promises ive had fer hym all dose tyngsies and wat he use to say....even wen i say uid unc are...i do haf it in me to remind me...hym...btu nw hes like gone and im as breakable as d twig....haiz..ic nt depend on ma bestfern tomuch..eh ahs a life an dhee needs to pursue one tho...and to ma awiatyn oen too..id unoe but mb it goes to say if anyone any guy culd wait fer a gerl who haf no feelinsg fe rhym....io culd actuali hope and tyll i collect maguts to tellyn amawityn one....fer nw..nah..mb i aint prepared yet or sumtynmb due to d fact i feel vulnerable and i feel d need tobe lurved.....................well..haiz..ic nt tednd to evbryone tho.....sumhw wateevr ratiosn said was a fact"yu move aroudn tyll yru comfortabel wif sum1"..well hey it is.....but even tho i spent loadss tymes wif ma peeps..is tyl;lr emmmerb ma other frens,nad,ma bestfren abd,ruzaini,chal and others...i still go tynkyn and styll will goo i ned yu guys...i een brag and make a big fuck about dis peple wne i chill wif ma peeps.....haiz...im proud in hfayn tyu guys as ma frens and all but iits nvr d other wae round or anytang......nwiaes wnr to werk.w.a late brought am ciggeis and lost am liter mtherfucker bytch..hah bougth a new one..very d yce...sliam nd purpel....denwnt to werk..crowd liek crazie..killin me..i and kat go mad sia..2 peple handle d crowd and ergh..sandwhch ...ia kata n bell went..phew..aite all wnt crazie..btu wss fun tho..hahahaha den dey kold kaia nd he edint pick up..he didnt go to werk..and he was msgyn me..he tld me t to ttellnione..and hey yep..i haf to shut ma mouth..evbryone wa sakin me to kol mahubyand i wnt ergh.id unoe eh hafnt been msgyn em since ysterdae an di kold hym juz nw he didnt pick up...d werst partw as kat was tryn to kol hyma nd hes was msgyn me ryte infrnt of each other...katw a skolin hym infrnt of me and iw as msgyn hym..ahah so tld hym if i kol dun pick up so it didt.....he didnt tho..gd hubby..haah den nw hes asleep..miss hym to....mb hes gna follow bsk....dim nt suppose to sleep late cz hhubby bene naggyng...ergh.....den after dat i went to meet up siti and dewi ... den we chilled fer awhle she was wid eeyed botu me smokeng...hahah wwateve....den i wnt off den w t hme..haiz.....tynkyn stuffs....nwiaes gta go now....im sleepya nd im realie relaie tired and my myd is full of shit and i wish i culd ferget it..ergh 2marow ah..m,eetyn hubby!!!hahahaha...k gtg..beys