THROAT INFECTION n A COLD

well...its been daes..hahactuali onlie 2 daes...coz ive been busy doin ma asgnments and stuffs so kinda busy but hey i manged to trevamp ma blog so i hafntbeen bloging..niwaes...

Saturday 05032005

i was soo tire..woek up wif no voice..sriously i do lah..btu i juz culdnt reach d point..heheh its hurts sooo bad dat i was sooolazy to talk..den came dwn wif a feveer and decided nt to talk..slept fer 2 -4 hrs and kodlela to chat bout stuffs and h\she was laughyn ahrd at mavoice..tanx gerl..need em..hahah den went out eat wif ma malaysia cuzins and had me kolin d old yah bout madrsah d afternoon..well obvusly eh didnt go so..of all d watever....niwae wanted to wish fendi..btu hey lost am voice and culdnt talk but wadafcuk does d sms fer..nwiae had created a msg wishyn hapie berday but den kwang kwang kwang..i didnt save hys number...hahahah well nwiaes brader....hapie ebrday aytes..sorie soo late..mb in conclusion;.yu owe me 2 choczies welll dats yur berdae presen so yu dun haf to buy me d 2 aytes?hahhahaha....niwae..i owe dhern her berdae present..darlin wait a wee bit more....hhehehehe...den wnt back hme and had a good nyte sleep.actuai no...had d fever late at nyte..so was tossin and turnyn..hehehh

sunday 06032005

woke up haddone sum chores but ma body feel oh so wek...den did sum hw and den strt on doin ma oprintmakin..tld hubbby dat me nt goin out so he wnt to dwntown eats to haf as[plashin god tyme and freakins pend 90 bucks wif the whole family..hehehe..den had done ma printmakin and d whoel toilet was in a mess...kinda need moe linsedd oila nd ma ferts 2nd layer print was nyce...d allignment shifted a wee bit but hey..it looks oh so perfect..dn d othjer 2 d akler went...wrng...nwiaes...den gat clean upd whel bthroom...ma whole hands were orange and yellow and ot leave trails frm d room to the toilet and d kitchen i mean red,orange an dyellow...haah i gat sopray d whole wae wif wd40 to clear evrytang up..ahah wd40 is soooo useful in any other wes....it clears stains also nt onlie n]motors..hahahahh...den old yah kold up to lepaks..as usual ..he wnt to cut hys hair ferst and got ciggies frm hys dear old dad..he sure got d bestest dad in d werld...hahaah dun take advantage old yah....niwaes he reached hme to get ready to meet us all and gif me ea kol oso i gat get ready and stuffs..kold abd and he said wanan folow so meet hym up ferst den walka lld wae t s11...he waitynf er nyot at d sam etyme...i had a smoek and d ciggei staste bad...why?coz ims ick..hahah den along d wae abd asked me few quesions..nwiae ders dis questiosn he asked..and i it kept me liek aback fer awhile..well i deciced to 4get ma adear awaityn oen bu wen abd asked..i didnt hafa an answer and wenr..im alzy to talk botu it..hafnt been tynkyn.././/mb i already 4get hopin fe rit..well id di i tynk....den meet odl ayha nd aizt and mursh...mursh look soo rundown..as if he was masterbatyn behynd a rock unfortunateldy and lori juz run hyn dwn...ahah( he lurves masterbatyngbehynd d rock!)..hehehnwiaes den we chileld had me eatyn mee gorng...and drink milky..den msged hubby tl dhym im out..and eh ewnt i tot yu asay yu dunw ann gopotu..sick sikc den gootu.d.en i say hahaah sorielahd ey..im bored den a fren kodl em up..ahahah denwabd went of to nyots hus an dwe 4 went to t.m..saw d freakin hidayah wif d oh ma god oh so bignose...shes ergh..was pointyn to me adn stuffs..and aizat was sayin yep she was and i dsay id un fuckin care i m nt lookin at he shewa wastyng am fuckin 7 yrs man..cz i dun fuckin see her or talk to ehr fer fuckin 7 yers...ergh!!!watevr..sluts dun scare me..dey wastyna m tyme!nwiaes den wnt toc hille dnhynd t.m wif afew vadees heheh and wnt to buy ice caramel macchiato..heaven...hhahaha at starbucks i mean..and as usual d counetr was sayin ist sweet,..and ild yah wnt sayin is it as swet as me..as ususal..wards new....imw nderyn why id un fall fer dat....ost irritatyng tho...hahah den saw starbucks guy..eh cam eout to make hyms elf a drink..i wa sturnyn ma bck on hym dn was ljuz nt botheryn..old yah was trynt o hard to show off dat he and me were of kaua nd kau languange..ergh...i jzu dunbtehr..id un paly games...den he juz walk of..stoopid asshole...ergh././hate yu...u are as arrogant and as ergh as ma but.but hey to ttop all dat..yru cute tho..ahahahah..den we chileld an dstuffs..ma pilsl runyn off so we didcided to go ff...den went bakc hme wif mursh takin 65 and i took 293...heheh.,,,wa soake,,den recah hme,,and wa online...old yah wa sonline......and he asked mae a question...........DO I HAF FELINGS FER HYM AND AM I D GERL I SAID IT D STORY?..................................................................................















well readers............hes d awaityn one...welll i almost moved on...jzu wen i got holdof tyngs...why did i haf to retract wen i fire ma shot?why i gta juz stay wen i collected d gust to move on?well i didnt tell cz i dunw nan risk d relatiosnhyp we hd..sumhw..nt loada ecx cou[ples culd actuali be dis close an dim kind proud of it and i dunw ann lose it....liek eh said he dunw haf laodsa peple aporind hym..ima fre....i dint tell cz i didnt wanan add yr problems..i ratehr listent ot yur stories and flings frm norkiah to c.pz fren to yuw aitynf e rfioza and watevr shit......rather den tellin yu how ive felt...sumhw........yu gat understand old yah......

dats why i didnt haf dmood to talk ysterdae coz he caughtme off guard an digta tell hym...now i dunoe wrd to do...liek aizat says...ist bad dat im liein to maself...but den yu pepel dun udnertsand...i rateh rlie to maself rather den beeing truthful and jzu go botehryn i ratehr act,i rather juz go bck and tnka nd breakd own ratehr den tellin yui...cz sumhw....i deserve cz i sued to do all dat..btu den...............i jzu cnt 4gt/...
old yah said he doenst neo ward to say and ward to feel..wne i tld hym ia lmost moved on he sadi ward is adi botu movin on makes hym evenmore cnfused......
oldyah....yu relationshyp wi fme use to be cnfused.....but i prioritise and manged to put upa n act.....sorie fer lyin to yu dats all.......dats all


nwiae nw blogin.....
i gtago..skool babes...
fe rreaders, ma awaityn one journey ends here....







....................andi btr swithch ond radiont wif fantasia d truth is song..coz its been 4 to 5 days starte d song wa sond radio wile getyn ready fer skoool..and pls im tryn hard..very hard..........i knew it wnt happen...coz im reasonable..i ma ebe selfish bt i dun show,.....................................