Tuesday, September 07, 2004
tom delonge cheese @ amin
hahah okae...its a conclusion...amin soo outa of ma lyfe..hahah well i do lurve hym b4 but i waz tynkyn bout it...if i do lurve hym i wuldnt wanna get maself out of dis situasyen fast..ive been pesteryn hym to cum wif a conclusion..i told hym..ma kind of person nt like hym..i get ward i want but i throw wat id un wan...im nt bein sour grapes but i dun lyke hw he tynks all dis is notyn..niwae i did lurve hym out of pity..i did read c.ps blog..she sryte..yu gota be selfish in lurve oh yull suffer..well i did..twice..ma weakness is wenevr a guy cum to me and say he likes me..at 1st ill go okae im nt redy yet duyde and wen d guy go ohmagawd im sad and all fuckyn shity stuffs,den ill go sayin i lurve hym..ya ah...realize tyngs..niwae i gta learn hw to learn frm all dis...im nt statin d fact dat i got over amin but its d real fact dat i did all dat ouit of pity and i miss hys company badlie...darfds why i sae i lurve hym..whch is actualie nt true...hahah okae duyde..made a mistake der ill admit...i wasnt REAL..hahahniwae im okae..i waz cryin insyde d bus but i cry coz i hate all dis..i wish i didnt tell hym i changed ma mynd and ma feelyngs develop into lurvyn and missyn hym,.i wish i didnt tell wandi i do like amin...whch 1>say it to make hym jeles..2>i sae coz i feel pity of amin...well...haha im sayn all dis..ma frens wuld noe me..but sum peple whuld reali tynk im bein a loser for all dis..but nah..kopl watevr yu want but i lost a fren..but hym...he wasnt ma type niwae...hahahh okae sheena..yu soo gta stae tru to urself..im always distracted by all d tyyngs dat i dun need...so...der..hahah srius im okae..if i cry mb i need comfort...but ill be okae..nw i noe hw to handle all dis...hahah niwaez...i was smilyn after all dis..YES ma problerms solved so i dun haf to care bout ma fne...sheesh luckily im nt wif amin coz im gna look like a slut...hahah fancy datyng ma ex bfs bestfren..hah niwae...amin shuld trow all dose songs away bout me..no use doin dardbut ill styll go on wif ma project..ma visual arts project is bout me and amin...totalie 2 diffrnt person wif same interest but den dey are diffnrt on d outsyde but diffenrt in d insyde...so im kolin it ASHMIN...dey yu go..wen its ready yull see hw it looks..hahah im nt stoppin d project coz i wanan make it as a reminder....rmebr...dun make d same mystake...hhahahniwae im hapie very hapie... ineed to enjoy maself...realie need to...aite..cya!(oh ya as long amin dun fall for agerl like haney dat ill be satisfied..im styll hys frren.i noe hym sooo if eh did,im soo gna slap hym!)hahahahaha