hmmm..today tiring..got tynsg to do..headache coz waddafuck is dis damn iritatyng tyng kol COLONIALISMA ND POST COLONIALISM!!argh and i got to damn sumarise it to d shortest simplest wae posible for ma 100 freakin slides due tuesdae!!pls let me faint..now!!well...went to madra..alone coz anasick..den ruzaini went...gaf hym fus stuffs...tot of wantyn to mee ther sumday den gif it to her personallie..den i tynk ..ahhh...no nee dlah..ruzaini's always meetyn her...mite as well..i gif it to hym ryte?at least he got a reason to meet her evrytyme..hahah duyde..sheena stop being sarcastyc!hah niwaez,went bck wif ruzaini...tot im goin back alone den he kold up to me...sigh!damit!haha den chat and talklah insyde bus..styll d same iritatyn ruzaini who tynks d werld revoloves aorund hym..he ynks hys ONLIE fren and dikr and silat beibng 3rd revolves aron hym..watevre lah ruzaini..at least i change..mb im worst and i appreciate it if yu wantyn to help me back on path..well at keats i aint d old sheena nimore...den we talk and talk..talk bout he lied bout d jurong gerl..talk bou hym readyn mablog..haha soryte i dun mynd...talkin bout me and fud...well im nt pissed at fud..im juz pissed dat if she has d feelin and d right mind to want me and ruzaini back togther y dun she yu noe backoff or sumtyn to let dis grown uo ruzaini do ward he shuld do...i noe ruzaini got no fren but i dun understand why he tries very hard to be very close frens wif fud but her ei am tryin ti gif hym sum company..if im d typikal normal slutss exgfs..i wnt even care..but i dun..i noe hym..i noe hw hys frens island hym..and i dun like it..i dun like sumone whom i noe very well and once lurved wif ma heart b4...suffered due to frens..i mae haf all ma frens but i dun liek it if sum1 i noe suffer...i noe mb ima opinion made fudlana felt bad..mb ya she cried..im nt pissed at her...i dun mynd...i can talk to her..but i cant stop makin maself tynk dat i shuldnt be a part in ruzainis lyfe...hes contented to be frens wif fud..he dun need me..he dun listens to me wen im hys gf..y shuild he did now dat im juz a fren??fud shuld be grateful dard at leats ruzaini a fren..juz a fren respected her wif all hsy heart...gaf hys attentiona nd acompanie her wherever she needs hym..always der for her...and he can go to any extend for her..even though dey are juz frnes...yes i admit im being sour..but im being sour wif ruzaini...i dun understand why he can do all dard to A FREN...JUZ A FREN but nt to hys gf??srisuly...i cried liek crazi wen i broke up wif wandi..but i i didnt wen i broke up wif ruzaini...d lurve wasnt der...i cried but nrt bcos of dard.,i cried bcos he dun gif me attention..he gaf it to sum1 else...yu see..at tymes i reali reali tot...we werre meant to be tgther co zim soooo hafyn diff wiuf ma luvelife..any guy cums ma way has got to do wif ruzaini..(lucki hakim nt!hahha)but...if we were and we wre to get back toghther..i cant make maself be d old sheena whs nt aware of herself ....in sum sort of way...ruzaini styll aint ready for a posibility of a patch IF it were to cum along d way...hes styll aint ready to loose sumtyn he cherished ..instead he is willlin to loose sumtyn he once loved...i dun mynd being d loose one...i dunnoe ward i want..i dun even noe whtehr i shuld meet up wif fud or not..and like juz now..i knew hes meetyn fud...coz it s sooo dumb dard eh can actuali pray at home but he refused..if he sgna pray at dmosque mite as well stae tyll ishak!!haiz..watever lkeh...den syafik told me he saw dem..yu see...i dun need to ask..peple tell me...hahah...yu noe d truth is always out der...den now i dunoe whther shuld meet up dem 2marow...hahah wel...ills ee ma moodlah..hahah niwae..jzu finish chatyn wif akim....hes soooo funny...hahah argue wif hym ond net..he kol me minah and i kol hym punk rick..hahaha den kol hym abg akimd en he skold me..hahah..he si soo funny..den chat wif me ask me whtehr i miss hym o r not..hahah siow ah..den i talk to fik ask hym all ah..den fik say oif i dun fynd akim ma type jkuz dun lyn hymnimore...den i saw=e why yu sae dard??ade udang sblk mee eh??den die kate ye/..but hell tell me later..den juz nw akim juz sae he lurves me..wargh!!aoiyoh..but i itn gna swallow dard yet..haiz...i dunoe...i dunoe..im feelin hapie now..i liek d way it is..mb reconciling wif ru and fud is soo gan be diff for me...y am i carinf=g for evryone bt no one cares bout me??im doin evryatng maself....an dfi gta care for sum1 else??!!haiz..watevrlah!!hoep yu get ma point...