Monday, August 30, 2004
got ma eyes on yu..
well...erm...hahahaah...niwae long tyme..its been almost a week ive been updatyn dis tyngy...well ive been reali bz tho its ma term break coz ma daymn fuckyn com break down in the middle of ma daymn fuckyn finishyn ma fuckin assgnmnt!!hahahha..niwae...its okae now..and tyngs happen...amin told me dat he use to haf a crush but now hje reali reali likes me...he dun like d idea of me styll nt trustyn hym but i noe im benin over suspicious...niwaez,i told hym dun like put hopes on me coz im styll nt sure of hym and me ar..im realie nt sure...dne ysterday went out wif hym and khai and huz...dey are all funny..dey sae i childish!bas3rd sia..hahha mb i am but im different wen u noe me insyde...yu see..i haf dis open mynd..use to haf w/o securitties but nw..im feelin everytang..i dun even trust maself...niwae.waz fun goin out wif dem..we wwere soo enjoyin our tyme wif dem,we means ana,me and c.,p,sekali saw wandi wif d botch...den i went lyke hidyn bhnd ana and walk very fast up front...ana kol me but i juz walk away..i sat at orchard mrt and cry...den while walkin amin waz bhnyd us and wand wanted to join...d gal went bck hopme alone and he walk wif us and ahamd,nyot and fik...den we chill dwn at starbuck and all of us went silent...amin waz opissed dat evrytyme hes wif me even wen on d fone wandi will be around..urgh!!den amin waz nt in d mood..i waz tryn to enjoy d tyng..waz talkin to huz and khai and all and talkin to fika nd ahamd...laughyn and all...den i wasnt feelin good...ran in2 d toilet and vomit evrytang...amin went rushyn waityn infrnt of d toilet..he knew im bullemic...den i wasnt feelyn good and went bck home...den i waz talkyn to amin and all...im sad..pissed ...im soo bgyny to strt to like amin but wandi is sooo getyn in d dway..urgh..niwae i dun go fo rlooks ..im nt ah..horible like ihsan is crapie but i noe i wnt get d cute lookin guys like imran coz dey dun flatter me..guys like dis dey want gerls go for dem instead opf dem goin for gerls...dat wher yu noe...sincerity aint der..haiz...niwae amin and me gettyn clkoser...im beginyn to change ma mynd..mb amin mb not..well see how..but a dae w/o hys msg makes me miss hym..hahah even wen he sleep late i wory like crazy...hhahahaha niwae ytserday go bck late got curfew nw mus cum bck buy 8..stooooooopid...hahaha stooopid fuckyn father...niwae..ysterday wile waityn for c.p saw andi...argh!!hes sooo cute and hensem...pls pls pls let me reconcile wif hym..hahahhaah niwae gtg..very tired got headacehe..hafnt been feelin well..and amins werkin closyn soo today mus skleep early if nt i kene scoldyn..hahhah niwae adios and g dnyte!!