well...well..its been hours since ma grandma passed away..living me and d whole family..d whole empire..evrythyng...it was such as sad tyng...ma grandmas been sick nwadaes but didnt realize or gna tink dayt sh egna actuali leave us dis tyme...shes always strong and managed to recover but mb...dis tyme shes too tired of foghtyn back and realize dayt she gta go...she deteriorate after 7 yesterda...i gta look after her coz ma mum need to bath and prey///so i waz watchyn chinese shows wif her..she keep tossin and turnyn adn keep mumblyn and keep lyke moanyn..i gaf her drink and she klept quiet..but at aroun 10...ma bro fell aslepp wile sup[posedly watchyn over her wile i talk on d fone and ironed ma clothes..io heard her mopanyn out loud..i came rushyn to her..gaf her drink..wipe her eyes..but one tyng dat wonders me dat her eyes were all teray and she kept lookyn on top..as clock keep tickyn her moanyn and breathyn became louder and louder..it was scary...i was shoutyn at her asklyn is hse ok...ward she want..were pain..she waz sayin sumtyn but i culdnt figure out ward she was saying...its at 12..i fin eatyn ma DINNER and waz joking wif ma bro infrnt of ma granma..we laugh adn talk to her..she keep lookyn at us and mumble sumtyns but its styl unheard...her breatyn loudness overcum her speakin abilities..she hold ma hands and ma bros hands..i told her to slp coz she juz fynish eatyn medicine..she shook her head indicatyn dat she cant sleep..i told her go to sleeplah and keep wiping her eyes...she had dis blank look...den at 1 ma mum chase me to go to sleep..i dun intend to sleep coz i wanna look after her so reluctantly i went...b4 i went i told her goodnyte granma...go to sleep k if not yu haf a headacghe.den yu vomit.so sleep ayte?den tomorow wen yu recover we go bazaar k...den ma bro say yalor we go k.she nod her head.she held her hand.i hold her ansd said gdnyte last tyme...tears dwell down her cheeks..i didnt realize d intensity der so i went it...i didnt fell asleep i keep hafyn unsolved and clueless dreams...it waz sleeples tho at 3 plus ma mom woke me up...sheena!grandma died!..i waz like HUH!!...ma mom ask me to go bck to sleep bvut suddenly i waz wide awake..i woke up and sat lyk4 feet bhnd her..i waz really flabvbergasted..i dunnoe ward to sae or tynk...i feel dumb..i stare at her..yesterday wile lookyn after her i waz cryin coz iswandi and me fought over d stuffs coz im sad dat we gta go tru loads of probs in dis relationship.i waz cryin..i didnt noe i gta cry d whole day...i got ready and dceremony start...wen d tyme cum dey opened he face and her face became sooo pale dayt i waz scared too look at her...i cried and cried wen its tyme for me to kiss her...i didnt want to but i realli want to...i waz cryoing profusely...i kissed her and quickly ran inside d room to cry ma hearts out..iut was realie sad...it becum uncontrollable wen dey brought her away...i cantnot believe im losyn her dat easily...altho i hate her at tymes...shes done who help me...her las money she gaf me was $4..sigh!!it waz reali reali sad...now i gta sleep alone...she waz evrythyng for me....wen i waz young i always prey to god dayt she shuldnt be taken away...i suld be d one...let her live untyl shes old..she cant die...wen i got older i waz toooo bz to do dayt...i regret scoldyn her and tellyn her off wen she touch d loose wire on ma bad day,....how she always see me get ready how i always protect he rfrom being hurt by ma father...i always tell her to relazx while she crys and complens..how she always protects me form being caught by ma mom while talkyn on d fone frm 1 till 4 or 5am..how i use to complen her smell wen she dun wear powder b4 go to bed adn how she smells wen she eaty dis malay traditonal food petai...i reallie mizz her...i realize i do tresure her i reali lurve her....haiz!!evrytyng gota go..d bad tyng is dayt i cant see her on he rlas v=breath n dun see her difficulties vomityn andd shytyn...ma mum said her faeces waz black it means she sgta go soon...and she keep wavinh=g her hands in d air...haiz...duyde dis is as sickenyn as lurve and it reali reali realii hurt sooooooooo much.....